"But as for me, I will always have hope; I will praise you more and more. My mouth will tell of your righteousness, of your salvation all day long, though I know not its measure." Psalm 71:14-15

Friday, September 12, 2008

8 days left... I'm putting Martha aside

We have 8 days until our wedding day, 8 DAYS! It's so hard to believe that a little over 9 months ago was the night we got engaged. It seems like 2 months ago. Time has gone by so fast.

Our wedding day is upon us. Everything is planned. Everyone who is helping, or standing with us, or vending has their schedules, driving directions, and checklists. I realize that I've returned to my OCD tendancies the past few months, but I've enjoyed it. I will go back to reformed, laid-back Jill (who showed up in my mid-20's after much reflection and work) after the honeymoon. It's how I deal with stress; leave me alone, I'm in my OCD comfort zone! Hehehehe.

As things are winding down, I'm putting Martha aside, and trying to be Mary (Luke 10:38-42). It's so funny that during all of the wedding planning madness, my small group studied the wonderful book, "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World." Fitting. I've definitely been Martha lately, and Martha extreme in recent weeks, "worried about many things."

I took time last night to begin writing notes to my friends for the wedding. I got sentimental, shed a few tears, and thanked God for blessing me with so many AMAZING women in my life. The women in my life have shaped who I have become, starting with my mother, and I am so grateful for them. One woman, my Meme, won't physically be with me on my wedding day, but she will be there in many ways. My Something Old, my Something Borrowed, and even the flowers I will carry, help her be there. Women come strong, and strong-willed, in our family. I wouldn't have it any other way; Matt might, but I wouldn't!

I pray that in the next 8 days, I will have a Mary spirit, reflecting on the journey and the people who have brought me to this place. And that I will continuously look to God for guidance, and maintain a peaceful spirit, not worrying about anything. I am truly blessed most of all by the wonderful husband that waits for me at the end of that isle. I pray we will both keep Christ in the center of our marriage, and speak the truth in love to one another always.

2 comments:

Lamm said...

I can't wait to see you get to Matt at the end of that isle, but I also can't wait to have fun at all the pre and post festivities! YAY!

The Lamey Family said...

Jill....what a special post. So glad to hear how the Lord is blessing your heart right now. So happy for you guys!